Thursday was my last day at work as an engineer. I have perfect peace that I am following the Lord’s direction but the whole experience is rather surreal. Over the past few weeks I have felt confidence and insecurity, liberty and fear, the new man and the old nature.
I know that it is the Lord that gives one power to get wealth (Deut. 8:18) but the old nature would rather walk by sight than by faith. For over ten years now I have put in 40 hours a week and received a paycheck every other Friday. During this time I also have had good health benefits. My background includes two engineering degrees, a national research award, a paper published in a technical journal, and positions as a materials consultant and a national sales manager. Up until two weeks ago I was a director at an organization that allowed me to provide technical assistance to manufacturing companies throughout the State of Ohio as well as assist in supply chain development of the emerging wind turbine market. It had been a good career with a promising future. I had felt secure in the midst of a turbulent job market.
When I turned in my two week notice I felt like I was taking a plunge into the deep, into waters to swim in, a river that could not be passed over. It is in these real and very personal moments of life that we must choose whether to fight against the current and try to continue to walk by sight, or yield to faith and trust in the Lord to keep us a float. I must confess that I have floundered at times, but I am choosing daily to walk by faith, that I may know Him, and the power of His resurrection.
“But what things were gain to me, those I counted loss for Christ. Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ," Philippians 3:7,8